Sunday, March 12, 2006
M I going tru pms or wat?This sudden downness is unexplainable.shuo bu chu kou...xiang bu tong... =(I dunno what is it tt's making me feel like this.A part of me wants so much to put down this strong frontn let loose of my emotions.Yet something is holding me back. Is it for e fear of losing face?Is it e dislike of getting sympathy?orIs it e fear of receiving too much love from others who will care?I dunno.Often I feel skeptical of things n pple arnd me. That's why I oways hold up a shield,nv express my love n concern for e pple I do care for. It's nt tt I dun care.Fear of rejection. Yes.I know there are much better ones above me.Who are more qualified to care.My abilities n qualities are just so tiny compared to theirs.-I dun nid any n i am not seeking for pityness by puttin up this entry. --I'm just being numbed for too long-
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