;; no where near to perfect ;;

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

* Merry Xmas 2005!**
Christmas was spent out with my Uncontrollable gurls at Cine TCC.
Atmosphere was nice.
Hmm..food n coffee was orite. Haha..probably we were all too occupied with the presents matter so no one really concentrated on the food.?

Had 2 sets of christmas present xchange.
Cos one was for last yr. When we din get to celebrate in e end due to some matter.
One's for this year.
loll..e presents were funny thou.ok..e recepients for tt particular presents played a part too.
Had fun crazing arnd n chattin wit e gurls.
Headed for Partyworld at 3am.Sang till 6am.
Hahha.my 1st time in my life to stay out soooo late can! was excited la.

Oh ya. I have to mention this.
Town was in Horrible plus terrible state tt day.
Thousands of empty cans of foam spray were lying all arnd on the streets in town.
We had to be on guards when out on the street cos pple were simply spraying anyhows!
Yucks!

Not a beautiful christmas scene.
haha..

Anyway,I still had a great time.

People, have a blessed year ahead n Take care all!

;; right from the beginning1:34 AM

Friday, December 23, 2005

For the first time I feel that I need a hug. Now.
One which will let me know that Im safe;
let me feel that I'll be Alright.

;; right from the beginning3:40 AM

Thursday, December 22, 2005

The sky is getting cloudy n darker.
Can hear thunders.
Think it'll start pouring in 20mins time?
hhaha...anyhow say de.

Yawn...
Feeling sleepy now.
Slept at 7am this morning.
Initial plan was to take an hr's rest.
But woke up and realised it was oready 11am.

Tml's e dateline for FYP report FINal draft.
Im still stuck at how I shld edit e draft I jus gt bk not long ago.
Dun really understand what my supervisor Cherry wants me to do.
Seriously speaking,my heart's oready not at FYP...
this thing's been dragging on for too long.
From the start of fyp experiments in March'05
End of experiments in June'05
Presentation in August'05
Doing Thesis after August until now.

Okay la...come to think bt it...maybe it's true tt my fyp report is not as stressful as other teams...
but den still can't help it ma.
Well,everyone's different u see.

Anw, wish me lucks pls.
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Went for the wake on Tuesday night.
Today,later in an hr's time,think he will be sent to cremation.

I've gone tru this b4, n I swear tt this will be the Hardest moment to survive.
When I witnessed the coffin moved into the automated fire place where the body will be cremated and the shutter closed behind it, the pain was unbearable.
Physically separated from tt moment on.

To U:
Now I just hope tt...
Girl,be strong orite.
Fear not
Time will fade all these pain n grieve away.
Yet one thing for sure is tt
Happy Memories will oways remain vivid.

Brave up.*
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21st Decemeber'2004
My ah Gong went away suddenly.
Everything jus seemed as thou it was yesterday.
Fact is
It has oready been One year since then.
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Take care all.
Blessed year ahead.

Adieuz.

;; right from the beginning11:50 AM

Sunday, December 18, 2005

I really Detest myself. Despise.Disgusted.
Who AM I to judge and tease others???
When I myself don't have the qualities and capabilities?
Im soo regretful and guilty now.
It's always after incidents happening tt make me become reflective
and start re-evaluating my inner soul.
What's wrong with me?

I will learn and try to be a better person!
I wanna be a better person!

=[[

*How I wish I can return to those times when innocence and simplicity surrounded our life.

;; right from the beginning11:52 PM

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Left speechless...
with teary eyes
Although I don't know why,
but I'm traumatised by the news that came so sudden.

All tt I can do for you now is to pray for the wellness of U and ur family.
Be strong.

;; right from the beginning12:36 AM

Sunday, December 11, 2005

when all of the stars are fading away...
just try not to worry
u'll see them someday...

verse from the song "Stop crying your heart out"-Oasis

It's a really nice song.lyrics are meaningful as well.
1st heard this song when I watched the Butterfly effects.
n the show's pretty interesting too.

Today's e last day of Creative Fest but din have to work cos they have enuff cashiers.
Was their mp3 runner at the previous fest in september. am the scanner for this fest.
Different experience thou.

Oh ya.BIGG Thanx to Jsee, Angela,Meifong (anata), Da eeling, Elaine, Limay n Sihui for the really nice present, the yummy swensen's cake n the birthday song.
Sorry to disappoint u gurls..cos I din cry..hahaha..
But i was really touched. I guess u all saw my reaction oready la. so shld be satisfied? hahaha..

Thanx mummy for the present.Thanx da jie for ur present too (thou it's gonna be a belated one.=D). Muackks.

BIG BIG BIG thanx to everyone who sent me ur best wishes. I really appreciate them all.=]

Hey people, do Take care n be happy k.

I will pray for all.

Adieuz.

;; right from the beginning8:00 PM

Saturday, December 10, 2005

SOBz.
yesterday was the dateline but
I cant send my FYP thesis to my sup. cos apparently my file is too big n her mailbox is full as well.
HOW!?!?
my hard work. =[

Pple, any ideas how i can let my sup. get access to my thesis in anywhere?

HELP!!!!

;; right from the beginning8:53 AM

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

I can feel myself falling into deep deep shitt this time round.
Doomm..

Seriously digging my own grave already man.

Arghhhh

so Suicidal!

save me plss.

;; right from the beginning4:47 PM

took a color personality test a while ago n this is my result>>>

Your Existing Situation
Insecure. Seeks roots, stability, emotional security, and an environment providing greater ease and fewer problems.

;; right from the beginning12:06 AM

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

PLEASE.

do i have to repeat myself a hundred times to be understood?

;; right from the beginning11:29 PM

it's really weird at times.
human feelings and actions i mean.

very often how we act might not be according to what we think.
n
what we think might not be reflected in the way we act.

Do my sentence make any sense? Im confused already. haha...

;; right from the beginning9:52 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005

Already trying very hard to put things down

but being on Msn aint good at times bcos it makes me start to Hu si luan xiang again...

sometimes I wish tt box whld pop up n blink again like it always used to.

but,it's Pointless to be thinking of these now

cos it aint gonna change anything.

just (:

;; right from the beginning12:42 AM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Just returned from Jsee's chalet.Happy 19th once again.=D
Was an interesting night.
It's been really some time since all of us had e chance to get together n jus talked n laughed our hearts out.
Jsee,Phloy,Elaine,Meifong,Angela,Da el,Sihui,Meiwei n me.
Yesh.Us. =]]
Talked bt everything under e sun,e moon,e stars...

Really Love all of them sooo much.=]]
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Will be meeting HL n CS in town later.Their exams are finally over.
Although will be going later on.
But I just cant seem to allow myself to play n enjoy wholeheartedly.

Because e thought of my incompleted FYP thesis, just puts me down.
2nd draft's due on 9th dec. Cherry says that there should be minimal mistakes for this draft bcos we should regard it as if it's e Final draft already.(final draft's due on 16th dec)
Shit. Even my 1st draft is already in a mess.
Sleepless nights are coming again. just like hw i did e FYP 1st draft n PP tt time.
Hate it.

The alcohol n beer after effect since last night is not gone yet.
Headache.headache.

But anw,I shld really stop complaining.

I am irritating.

Adieuz.

;; right from the beginning1:30 PM