Saturday, September 17, 2005
Just had a casual talk with mama. She asked abt my plans after graduation. I told her bt the monash uni programme which I had given up the thot of joining.
She hopes tt I'll go pursue something in the arts track, which undeniably, is an area Ive been interested since young.
Yet
I told her that I am an aimless child. Ive got no directions as of where I want to head to.
This sounds dangerous. 6 more months n I will be stepping into the society to survive on my own...but yet I dunno what I want to do. -__-"
When I reflected on my learning journey since young, I do feel a little sorry for myself.
Cos it hadn't been a pleasant one.
I know I hadnt been academically good anw.
Ive failed;in my position as a student.
Haiz..sometimes I wish I had experienced horrible setbacks and falldowns in my life when I was younger. It may sound absurd tt I'm actually cursing myself.
But think abt it. If one hadnt experienced such falls, she'll nv learn the survival skills be it physically or mentally. She'll nv learn to stand up strong on her own feet.
Most importantly,she can nv explore and know what she really wants.
Haiyo..so troublesome..shang nao jing ah~~~
-_-"""
Hate growing up. Ok tis is contradictory.
Well....
Im still lost.
;; right from the beginning3:50 PM
