;; no where near to perfect ;;

Monday, August 29, 2005

This person told me this-

:Sleeping is to prepare yourself for the route ahead
:follow the same, and u can attain nirvana too
:may faith be wif u, *amen*

I sleep most of e time..but I oso haven attain nirvana.
loll..so how true is tis den?

muahaha...rubbish.

;; right from the beginning12:59 AM

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

It is how paranoid and contradicting oneself can really get that amaze me.
Feelings and thoughts contradict each other.
At one pt of time I may be thinking of blahblahblah...and at a flick of mind,I will be thinking of something on the otherside,tt often are contradictions to each other.

This is how complicated thoughts and feelings can get...

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I used to
yearn for this distance between us to shorten
Now,
the shorter this distance gets,
the bigger this fear stretch.
What if one day this distance breaks
n everything bounce back to where it all began from?
Will I be able to let u go?
I really fear.

Yes..how contradicting. (-__-)

;; right from the beginning1:02 AM

Friday, August 19, 2005

I dont have the beauty of Mona Lisa
I dont have the brains of Einstein, Albert
I have neither the talents of Shakespears nor Da Vinci.

But I am Me.
A Me whom I am still trying hard to accept n love.

I wont ask for everyone to like me.
But at the very least
Please dont criticize me for how I look
and my height.

I wont sought everyone to understand me,the things I do
and the way I behave.
But at the very least
Please appreciate me n e little bits I do for you.

For I am Me.
A Me I am still trying to live with.

;; right from the beginning2:45 AM

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

How?
I cant seem to overcome myself.
No wonder there's a saying tt goes, " we are our own best enemy."
low self esteem. inferior. no confidence at all. motivation level at 0.
I've just fallen into e bottom of the pit again. How m I ever gonna get out?
Disappointed.
Speechless.
Numb.

Wat a letdown. [-,-]

;; right from the beginning1:15 AM

Monday, August 15, 2005

Genomics Rj. Rather interesting.

-What does "success" mean to you? Are you a successful person?

How to comment anyone?

;; right from the beginning3:46 PM

Slpt over at Elaine's hse on saturday nite cos the gurls had their last match against NYJC on sinday at 830am. So since elaine's place is just opposite to the stadium,hah,so angela,phloy, da el n I went to stay over.

Their last match was good compared to the others. The gurls played well. at least to me. This is the kind of spirit in court tt we shld work towards to ya.? Jia u gurls!

Went shoppin with CS after departing from the vball gurls. However i was so damn depressed after shopping tt I really wanted to leave n go home. Depressed cos I was feeling as thou I was down at the bottom of the pit.Low Self esteem. =[[

Fortunately something made my day.=]
Fireworks!
So prettyyy!
hahaha...despite the squeezings and mudding paths...
It was an enjoyable and great night at marina south.
140805
Sunday.
=]]

Whee~~

;; right from the beginning3:38 PM

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

My life's in a mess now.
Thought through it, n finally realised tt no one elses' to be blamed but me.
Im e only culprit.
Cos it was me,myself tt I stepped into tt trap willingly.
Now tt Ive fallen soo deep into it,
my life's finally toppled over.
Now,
I wish I chld get tis oready-screwed-up life,back to normal again.

B
Stop haunting me pls. -,-

;; right from the beginning11:55 PM

Sunday, August 07, 2005

A frend recommended me tis gre8t song with great lyrics.

-Angels or devils.

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

;; right from the beginning3:50 PM